I'm breaking out of my shell.
It's hard, but god dammit it's time.
And yes, that line in my topic from FLCL is a line I recite mentally. Thank you GAINAX!
also, "Jun meaning genuine" from Cromartie High School, seriously look up the lyrics in english, it's pretty moving (at least for me it is) is my theme for doing this.
Tue, Nov. 13th, 2012, 04:27 pm
Seriously, I think I just had the toughest exam in a long time.
Also the evening instructor is firing off essay assignments like a machine gun.
I think I'm hanging in there but damn what a start this has been
now pardon me while my brain fries some more
Mon, Oct. 8th, 2012, 12:34 pm
first: my back is hurt. Bad. Don't know how I did it. Nothing is broken but I pulled something fierce. Can't work out for a few days :(
second: I checked out the facebook for the school's anime club and got treated to a notice about... well, about how the room they were in stunk real bad
Yeah, I don't want none of that. I don't get it, why do some people set out to confirm the stereotype?
I'll find something else to join. Worse comes to worse, I'll create something myself. (probably a Monster Hunter group, bwahahaha)
First month done, and I think I'm FINALLY starting to adjust.
Still lonely though.
Any of the clubs I'm interested meet at times I can't go. This is what happens when people are allowed to register before you. You get stuck with all the shitty schedules.
oh man, I got BUTTSLAMMED by the economy on that amazon.co.jp order
it came to 5800 yen. Under normal circumstances that coems to about 59~$
but on this particular week the dollar is so weak (probably the AA- rating result) that the conversion was 76$!
I bought this book...
The good: It's a 600+ page encyclopedia of the entire Tales series that was 2800 yen (36 bux). Of course it's in japanese, but 400+ pages of the pages are pure artwork, most of which have never been released publically. It's a gorgeous thick hardback book too.
The bad: Shipping was 38$ -_-. As of now, I've only got 1000$ in my name in the bank :x
got some new gym clothes... we're doing this. TIME TO GET RIPPED.
Actually not, but I wouldn't mind getting some tone now that I dropped all that weight.
Fri, Sep. 14th, 2012, 02:54 pm
Well, I found something that fits my schedule...
Fitness classes. The gym. They are free and are just what I need, weight training so I can build some muscle.
The caveat... I've never been to a gym before!
And well, that, my doc says, will be the eye-opener. She really wants me to do this because this could be a huge hurdle in overcoming some self-image issues as well as confronting fears.
This should be fun D:
On another positive note... Monster Hunter 3G got a localization announcement yesterday. Coming out for the 3DS and a HD version for the WiiU. Been waiting 2 years for this.
Wed, Sep. 12th, 2012, 01:35 pm
Rightstuf (the people who rereleased Utena) is going to release Rose of Versailles
Tue, Sep. 11th, 2012, 10:35 pm
Today wasn't too bad
Classes are going ok so far. An issue is they all teach from powerpoint (this is pretty much typical for Computer Science/Information Technology classes) which is a good and bad thing. Good in that you can print them out and have free notes (adding to the slide what wasn't on them but mentioned by instructor!), bad in that it makes lectures draaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag on. This is especially bad in my 8AM class where I have to fight off the dozing. Some don't win their battles, and I notice them sleeping. Can't say I blame them, the instructor is nice and she is practical, but her presentation is very slow and low-key.
Socially, nothing. Though I can't expect results overnight. I checked the Student Union for some organization advertisments... not much. The board is actually crowded with students selling stuff. Books, bikes, even guitar lessons. I feel a little better on this front but still... uncertain I think is a good word.
Ultimately, I have insecurities. One of these which kept nagging me today in the back of my mind... putting it bluntly, I'm 26 and still live with my folks. Now, I have my reasons... namely finances. My grandmother gave me her house, but I'd still have to pay the bills and everything and I'd remodel the place (change floors). But I dunno, I always feel like people are extremely judgemental, and will quickly dismiss me for my flaws. Perhaps I need to work on changing my mindset before anything else...